When a kid we’re asked what we want to be when we’re older. What we want to do.
I used to think footballer but didn’t practice it outside of fun. Maybe actor cos that’s what I did but never felt fulfilling. An ice cream man something I do take pride in but something already done. The older I’ve gotten the more comfortable I’ve become with accepting what I’ve always wanted to be which is a superhero. I grew up on marvel films and the avengers. I’m watching invincible right now and I love it. Mark Grayson is great. I want to be a a superhero and this project feels like my superpower. Helping those in need and stopping the bad guys.
I started writing this a few weeks ago and I’m now on season four of invincible I love it it’s obviously simple but I’m simple. I understand it. I enjoy it. It makes me feel something when I’ve felt numb for a long time. Every day I’m going to work I wish I could just fly off into space visit different planets explore the universe be more powerful than everyone. So I can bring peace to the world and stop those wanting to bring harm to it I am a human I love humans and I’m aware we can only be what we know therefore we are imperfect but acceptance of that should be all we need to know in order for us to learn to be better. We’re so divided we often end up hindering each other’s progress even if it eventually will mean a betterment to our own lives I run my dad’s TikTok page. He’s an ice cream man and he’s been doing it for 60 years he’s now in his 60s and still working hard. I post videos of him serving. And all people are talking about are his prices that have been forced to be raised due to inflation. Increased mortgages, increased bills, stock more expensive in order to survive he’s had to do it and he’s getting mad criticism. Working class people criticising working class people for surviving. me with great insight into our own lives recognise and knows why my father charges what he does for an ice cream these days. They don’t and they are so quick to be rude. My dad is so generous. He gives ice creams away gives almost everyone a discount. And he ends up poorer because of that. Choices he’s made all these years being worth nothing online because all people have chosen to highlight is the high prices that we don’t want to set and people don’t want to pay. He makes these choices in real life because he feels he’s doing a good deed he doesn’t need a camera on to prove how good he is he just is and that makes me proud to be his son. He’s raised me to be kind and generous so it hurts me seeing those disrespect him for everything he isn’t because of an online perception that’s false. The point is the current customer and server are only just surviving as working class people these days. And offended by each others own efforts rather than supporting one another won’t help any of us. The point I’m making is my whole project is built around wanting to help working class people like myself and that is still my main goal. But I’ve recently learned we’ve been taught so well to hate each other that we are now so divided the working class is not united meaning you can’t generalise the working class anymore. I can say it needs sewing back together in order to bring real change, but I acknowledge some don’t want to be sewn to others for they feel they are superior and to that I’d say I want to be a superhero but I don’t have superpowers. And neither do you which means none of us are superior. Resisting that fact will only make you a super villain. The true superpower is being human. which is something we should all strive more to be for it seems we have forgotten it. These identities we are falling a victim to at the expense of other lives and soon our own. See yourself in each other for I am you. I am human and so are you. Strive to be anything but that and you are not.
And just an extra point. A personal point watching invincible makes me feel incredible. I feel so happy like I’m a kid again then I have to live my real life. Reality hits and I’m scooping ice creams to ungrateful people who will only criticise what they know. I forgive them and I’m sad. I’m happy when I watch invincible and if it were a never-ending show. All I’d spend my life doing would be watching it. sadly it doesn’t though I’m on the last season. The next one is next year and it will be done one day like my life like your life and so we must make a choice. Do we waste our lives watching cartoons to distract ourselves from the harsh reality that is current life or do we be the heroes We love so much in our own reality so that we don’t have to look at a screen anymore for an escape. We can go outside. Help someone in need and die knowing we lived the life of a hero. I want to be a superhero being human is my superpower and if you see yourself in me, you will have that power too. I am a superhero and my power is you.
SEE YOURSELF
I don’t know who I am - Bonus
How I’ve been all my life feels like a performance. Truly myself is see yourself but anything but that doesn’t feel like me. I’ve lost myself or never had anything to lose in the first place so I guess I’m trying to find myself. There’s no me that exists to rediscover so I feel I must create me.
20 years I’ve been alive and not one of my decisions has been a choice made by me good or bad. It’s inspired another creative thought. A superhero like spiderman who’s also Peter Parker. When this hero is the hero he’s doing good and saving the world but when he’s not he does bad for he doesn’t know what to do with himself. He’s lonely, isolated with no one to praise him for the hard work he’s been doing as a hero. He hates himself so much he only wants to be known for his greatness as a hero. He hates himself so much he only does bad to himself and others when he’s not for he doesn’t value himself. 20 years have flown and all of my actions haven’t truly felt like my own. I feel ready to change that now by finally becoming you.
This project is what I care about most and I really need help bringing it to life, no one’s helping me and that makes me question everything. I always make myself useful and available for others when they need me but no one does the same for me. Ive always expected that help to be repaid but I wait and wait. I’ve waited too long where I now must either do it myself or not do it at all.
I’ve had this idea for years and I’ve just basically seen that lauzza is wanting to do basically what ive been wanting do for years. See yourself is ‘I am you’ he’s just saying ‘we’re all lauzza’. Its annoying watching someone with what seems like endless support essentially say my joke louder because ive not had the help ive needed for years, I think its jealousy because if my potential was fulfilled id be great before those who want to be great so I must do it all myself. Just annoying and hopefully not too late.
